So this happened last night.
It's the longest Campbell has ever slept!! So exciting except I didn't get any more sleep than I normally do. I woke up at 1:30 because that's when Campbell usually wakes up. I looked at the clock and sat straight up in bed then grabbed my monitor and saw Campbell wasn't awake yet. He's always swaddled which means he doesn't move which isn't good for my middle of the night anxiety. I stared at the monitor for a good 5 minutes before I finally hopped out of bed, ran up the stairs and decided to check everything out for myself. He was fine, of course. Ugh when am I not going to be paranoid? I'm going to go with never. Which means I'm not going to get good sleep for the rest of my life.
Once Campbell finally did wake up, he gave me this smile when I went to get him. I know he's saying "yay I did so good Mom!" I mean, the morning smiles make my heart melt into a huge puddle on the floor. Nothing makes my heart feel like this. The smiles are everything.
Gracie is here!!! And suddenly everything is right in their world again.
I still have mini panic attacks over Mason and he has slept through the night for over a year. But if I wake up and he doesn't wake me up no matter if it is 4am or 7am I panic.
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