Be Still.

Hey all! Happy Monday to ya. I'm back in the grind, doing all the things, and I'm ready to tackle it.
I had a moment last week where I cried to Scott and told him I felt like I was stretched as thin as I could possibly get. So overwhelmed, so exhausted. At the end of the day (aka once all the kids were asleep) I felt like I had nothing left to give to my house, my dogs, my husband or myself. My cup was empty and I just needed to rest. Normally after the boys go to bed, I go to my little office and work. I edit photos, blog, and whatever else needs to be done. But last week I just couldn't. I needed to give myself a break. So I did. I got the boys to bed then I chilled all evening until I went to bed myself. It was so great and so needed.
Sometimes having three kids feel no different than having two kids and some days I feel like I can only achieve the bare minimum to stay afloat. One thing is certain and that is that I am just really tired. I don't think it's a three kids thing, I think it's just the season of having a young baby. Because I have felt this way the first 8ish months of all of my kids lives. My body is tired. My mind is tired. I can't remember anything and I feel like I can only focus on me and my people and anything outside of that is easily forgotten. And I hate it because it's not out of selfishness or lack of caring, it's just simply that my mind feels so overworked with everything I have going on inside my four walls, with my little people, that there isn't room in my mind for anything else. Does that make sense? Have you been there? My brain feels fuzzy and I frequently wonder if I'm forgetting something.
I know this season will pass before I can even realize it. I'll get my mind back (hopefully, haha!!) and I won't feel so overworked. But for now I've decided I'm not going to put pressure on myself to write a blog every day, get Instagram campaigns completed, make it to the gym every morning, or edit photos and get them sent off in less than a week. Those are all things I wish I could do, want to do, and try to do, but I'm not stressing if I literally can't get it done. Grace.
So if this blog feels flakey for a bit, it's because I'm a little flakey right now to be honest. It is what it is. I have a feeling that once fall arrives, life will feel less exhausting. Or maybe it won't because Campbell will be in kindergarten and that will bring on a whole new set of tired! I have no idea, I guess we'll just have to see what it's like. I'm really trying to soak up my days having all of my kids home, before Campbell goes to school. I want to have fun this summer with my kids. We watch a lot of movies and play outside a lot. We work puzzles, color, admire baby Wells, build Paw Patrol cities, and watch TV. We're having a fun summer and I'm trying to enjoy it by taking off a load of stress I put on myself, and just be. I have a feeling my kids will appreciate it.