7

I wake up so early these days. I don't think I've been up at 7 am every morning since I was in high school. Unfortunately, 7 is when Ivy and Madison decide its time to start the day. I miss Holly. She would have found it perfectly acceptable to stay in bed all day long and if I got out of bed before 9 she was always so confused. I always thought Holly could lay in bed all day, every day and love it but in December I got sick and was in bed for 3 days straight and about halfway through the 2nd day she got bored with the whole bed thing so I guess my assessment wasn't correct. I miss my girl so much. I think about her every single day and my heart always sinks down into my stomach when I do. Everything reminds me of her. I'm crying right now typing this! It's been 4 months. It seems like its been a lifetime but it also seems like no time has passed. I don't believe I'll ever be the same and I don't think my heart will ever truly find peace again. The only thing that gives me comfort is knowing that one day I will get to hold that sweet baby in my arms and from then on I will never have to be without her again.


I didn't intend on this post being so depressing. Sometimes I look at this blog as a diary. Sorry! I should probably get some sleep. It's almost midnight which means 7 am is going to come very early--like always.